Not Posting...

Because I am NOT LOSING> Same weight different month. Bah Humbug.

Monday:

Yes, I actually tried to do all of these positions...The thing with Pilates - you have to hold the position for entirely too long - so you feel the pain and think about the pain which makes you REALLY feel the pain! UGH! I try and chant in my head over powering the pain "No flappy skin. Skinny thighs. Skinny arms. Tone belly". Yeah, it doesn't really work.


Tuesday:

This muscle building class was a combo of step and weights - equally as hard but faster paced which helps with the burn a little. Well, I take that back... But at least the music was loud.

I hate them both enough to know that they are working - and love it enough to go back! Skinny arms - Here I Come!!!

I am down 45 pounds! THAT IS HUGE!!!! HUMONGOUS HUGE!

I have been more aware lately of my "sigh spot". I know that I can eat well past the point of fullness. Not fantastic - but not bad if I realise when to stop.

Exercise resumes soon. I am waiting on a friend to return from vacation and we are starting a new gym. Curves isn't doing it for me anymore. Classes here I come! Yoga, Pilates, Dance... Can't wait!

Willpower? NOPE.

All of this is in my house RIGHT NOW.What do you think I do?

I start by eating a handful of those edamame nuts, packed with protein, then wash them down with a handful of those delicious peanut butter M&Ms. Because lets face it - the M&Ms are WAY BETTER - and doesn't peanut butter have protein, too?

No wonder I can't lose any weight.

Forever the Same

I am not losing weight. I am down 4 measly pounds since January - it's April! I got a fill and dropped those 4. Then back at my plateau...
I need another fill. It is the only answer. I watch my calories, I exercise and nothing. Honestly, I haven't been to the gym in a week - what's the point? I'm not losing either way.
I know, I know, the point is to be 'stronger' 'healthier' but really, if that was all that I needed to be motivated to work out - I wouldn't have needed to get the lapband. I am motivated (at least at this point) by weight loss - or at the very least, dress size loss.
I hesitate to get a fill because I throw up a lot. Not a lot -lot, but often enough. On average, about every other day. That's enough to not want another fill. Whatever - I'm doing it. Now to find the time to drive up to Snowflake...

More than meets the eye

So I have been at a stand still. No weight loss - but NO GAIN! Even through Valentine's Day! YIPPEE!

I did however have a doctor's appointment last week and guess what? I am down 48lbs from last March! That totally counts, right? I may have only lost 35 since surgery - but I forgot about that 10lbs prior... AND THAT 10 COUNTS, TOO!

For some reason, I feel skinnier... I get a fill in 2 days, there will be fabulous weight loss to report soon!

Not Posting

I am not. I refuse. No way. No how. I will not post it on the house, I will not post it with a mouse. I will not post it here or there, I will not post it anywhere!

I refuse to post my current weight in the sidebar.
R-E-F-U-S-E!

My weight. insert throat-y disgusted gurgle There is one word for it. STUCK. Plateau doesn't describe it. STUCK. I am back up to 250 and holding.

I don't understand it. I am still losing something, my clothes are falling off. Even the skinny ones that I bought tight just before Christmas are loose.


Whatever - weight is irrelevant. Skinnier is skinner - regardless of the numbers! So my scale can suck-it!

So, I heard a little rumor the other day...

I heard that if you begin working out, and you are not typically accustomed to doing so, your body holds on to all of those calories because it thinks you will be needing them to sustain you during that increased usage. Therefore you do not lose weight. So,(here's the catch) if you work out for a couple of weeks then take a week off you will drop that weight because your body realises that it doesn't need to hang on to those calories anymore.

Really? I guess there is some (maybe) merit to that. My body has followed that pattern. The entire time I am working out, I am remaining the same, aka plateauing. When I take a break for a little bit, aka Christmas in Utah, I drop significantly.

Weird. Where's Snopes.com when you need them?

Down again?

What the heck? I am down again...

Now don't get me wrong - I LOVE IT! But I am totally confused. I work out and work out, watch what I eat and NOTHING. I eat like crazy, hardly work out and BAM! I lose!
The only way to make sense of this craziness is to realise that my body plateaus then drops, plateaus and then drops. I will try and keep that in mind when I am on the next plateau.

Regardless, I am down again! YIPPEE! I have also made the discovery that my bathrobe weighs 2 lbs - yep, you heard me - 2lbs. I am NEVER weighing in that thing again. Naked is the only way to go - flappy skin and all.